Two weeks of Hell

Will I know that it has been a while, so here is an update: Started school on the 9th and all has been will until the loneliness set in. Started to bengee eating at night. I think it is being alone with some much time on my hands. I try to keep myself busy with homework and walking, but there is only so much you can do until everything starts to close in on you. I think it because that the holidays are over, and that all the family and friends have all gone home. Trying to stay in a routine is hard when you have no one around to push you. The support groups are great but the can only do so much. (sip sip). I not saying that they do not work, they do work and are great for support for eating the right foods and all, but I felt alone, like I do not fit in. Maybe it is due to the fact that I am new and I had my surgery somewhere else. Remember how you went to a party, or your first day in a new school or office. They all welcome you with smiles and talk to you, but, you still feel like you were out of place.

Then we have had snow, and then 5 days no power. And to make matters worst, I got homework due. Every time I go out and try to get it done, I just can not get into it. Its like I got a million things racing in my head. I just feel over whelmed. Trying to get it all done but some how I just do not think I can.

I am still losing the weight, and not on Monday a have a trainer at school that will work with me two days a week. Is free so I know that I can get back into the game. (sip sip) Will post more on monday.

And the week begins

Hello ya'll

Will lets start off with I went to see the doctors on Thursday. I thought that I would be in and out in 10 to 15 minutes, ohhhhhh nooooooo I was there over an hour and a half. I left my bottle of water in the car because I ASSUMED that I would be in and out. They ask me where my water was, I told them it the car. I saw my favor RN Ms. Love. Yes that is her name. She has been a big part of this journey. I know if I need someone to talk to she will be there.

So back to doctor appointment I weighted in at 244.4 FULLY Clothed. not bad at all the normal weight loss for this surgery is 45 pounds at the 3 month mark. I was it 56 pounds plus it was at Christmas time. YAAAAAAAA. I was pulled off of all my meds, and no more protein shakes. :)

Then the other day to top it all off I put on my Navy Dress Blues. The very same one I wore when I retired. and the pants were TOOOOOO BIG!!!!! Damn I look gooooood in it. The smile on my face lit up the whole house. (sip sip).

So the new chapter in my life has a great beginning, with an new out look on life, family, and my future. This time last year, I was in the dark, I was cold and I was alone. I did not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but today, I have a great person who loves, and respects me, She has two great kids and she puts up with my jokes. I love you Tammy. I have two quarters left of school, and working on getting back on my feet to support not only me but my family. (sip sip).

Well it is getting late and I need to check on a sick lady.

Like always remember to sip sip

On till then, T.T.F.N.

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year!! Looking back over 2011, I came to the conclusion that last year was a BIG Freakin Roller Coaster RIDE! Where I screamed, I cried, I smiled, and laughed. I was at my lowest and at my highest in my life. What will 2012 hold in store for me? No clue, but like last year, I will take each day one step at a time. (sip sip). I know it will be a rough ride, but with the support of family and VERY CLOSE Friends (Tammy), it will be a breeze. Here are the goals I set for my self for 2012:

Lose another 50 pounds, Get into UW Tacoma, scuba diving certify. and I want to SKI Dive at least once maybe twice. With losing all this weight I feel like the ski and ocean are the limits. I have more get up and go. I am not fatigue, I am sleeping at night and I do not feel overwhelm in school.

But the Biggest eye opener was last night when I got a call from a friend who husband had an heart attack. He had 70% blockage to his left ventricle. AKA " The widow maker!" BP was 229/125. Not good. They are performing an Trans Esophageal Echo Cardiogram at 8 am PST in the morning. They need to know if the aorta is dissecting. Tammy look at me tonight and said "This could have easily been you!" Yes Tammy it could have. If I did not change my life style when I did, This could have be me, and that is the scariest part of it. I was on 6 different meds.

Here is a Christmas picture of me last year.

And here is this year Picture.

Remember (SIP SIP)

Christmas Blues

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! What a week!!! Way to Much Food!!!! But I did very well. On Jan 5th I go for my three month post op. Still can not believe that is has been 3 months since the surgery. Down to 235 to 240. Not to bad for a three months. Still looking to lose another 50 pounds to get where I want to be at. In two week I start school again and I know that I will not be temped to get food. I try to walk every day for an hour, but the weather here in Seattle has gone back to NORMAL!!! RAIN And More RAIN!! I still putting in the protein and drinking water. I still can not handle coffee yet, so I have been staying with Chi Tea with soy milk. Plus I have gone from a VINTE to a Tall. ( SIP SIP), a couple of times I did over do it, but everyone I talk to says that is normal until I learn how much I can eat. I think what is hurting me this year is that it was the first Christmas as a single person and with a new family. Tammy has be awesome is supporting me with my ups and downs and like wish me for her. Christmas has always been hard for her and I hoping that I can show her the true meaning of Christmas is.

Here is a picture of me and Christopher at NW Trek and one taken on Christmas day here at home.

The Pictures are about two years apart, and I just can not believe how I look. 60 pounds is a lot of weight, and I feel so good and I sleep a whole lot better. The problem is that I do not seem like that when I look in thew mirror. So now here comes the New Year, and then back to normal eating ( or as close to it as I can get). (SIP SIP).

Until next week Remember to (SIP SIP) and have a Happy New Year!!!

What a week

Well is has been 9 days since I last updated, so here we go. Last Friday was the end of the winter quarter, and two Christmas party's. I feel that I did very well at them, did not finish any food I had on my plate and it was very little at that. ( SIP SIP) Then on Sunday night Tammy and I with the kids ( Alena, Sydney and Christopher) went to Jimmy Mac's restaurant, where Tammy and I shared ( yes I said SHARED) a pulled pork platter. We still brought home a doggy bag.

This weekend I made Cookies, Brownies, no bake cookies and Magic bars. Do not worry, I have been very good, and the kids eat them all before even I had a chance to sneak anything. I through that Christmas was going to be very hard with all the cakes, cookies and sweets, and for the most part it has not been. Well,,, just a little, OK I WHOLE LOT!!!! I love baking and with the smell of cakes and cookie felling the air it is so hard not to just EAT AND EAT!!!! But I have to admit if the kids where not here I would not have made the cookies and cakes. (SIP SIP) I love my kids, old and new ones, and see the smile on their face when the eat some things good, like cookies and cakes. I want this Christmas to be special, for Tammy and the girls, Like them I have had a rough past couple of years.

Tammy has been my support and rock, with out her I would not have been able to get as far as i have. I have learned that with this type of surgery you will needed a strong support group, and for someone to you can lean on from time to time. I am not saying that this as been a walk in the park, in any means. As I lose the weight, a lot stuff goes through everyone mind. Like will he/she change after he/she loses the weight, or will he/she still love me as I am? Tammy and I went in to this with our eyes and hearts wide open. We talk about all the what ifs and what not's. We will work through any issues that may come up. ( SIP SIP)

Will time for bed and I will up ate you later this week.

Remember ( SIP SIP)

Associated Risks and long-tem consequences.

Last week someone wrote "Bariatric surgery has associated risks and long-term consequences and should be considered only part of an approach to treating obesity". I will have to agree with them. Bariatric surgery should be the very last resort when all other means have failed. The only person you talk to about this type of surgery is with your doctor. Before I was even a prove for the surgery I had to talk to 5 different doctors, my normal Doctor, a Cardiologists, a nutritionist, a psychiatrist, and a surgeon. I had to attended five classes on nutrition. Had to do a stress test.

This happen over a course of 5 months. After years of fail dieting, and not losing the weight after working my ass in the gym. I went this route.

Again the surgery is not for everyone, but if you do decide to do it talk to your doctor and ask people that had the surgery like it did. Keep track of your progress. This blog was the best thing for me. Away for me to keep track of my progress and away for others to follow.

Now to my weekly update, When to a Christmas party on Friday night, had a blast, met a lot great friends of Tammy's. I was told that I had to wear my BIG BOY Pants. But after meeting her co workers, I would have fit right in. So today I weight in and boy I am doing great I am finally under 240 pounds. I have not weight this in 8 years.

So I got my lab work back from Nov 11. Only issue I see is that my total Cholesterol is 92 range is 125-200 mg/dL, and my HDL is 20 but needs to be greater than 40 mg/dL.

My LDL was 53 mg/dL and it had to be <130 mg/dL. Need to find something that can rise my HDL and Total Cholesterol. Vitamin D over all was 29 needs to be between 30 - 100 ng/mL. My GLUCOSE was 104 needs to be 65-99 mg/dL just a little high. Over all not bad for one month after the surgery. I have more blood work being done in two weeks for my 3months post surgery. I hope the number look as good as they did in Nov.

Will time to run Remember

SIP SIP

I DID IT!!!

I Broke down and went to try on cloths today. I went from a size 50 inch waist to a size WAIT FOR IT!!! WAIT FOR IT!! 42 inch waist!!!!! YES 8 INCHES GONE!!!!!! Shirt sizes DOWN AS WELL. 3XL to just an XL. I got the biggest smile across my face today. I am so happy but also know that I have just started my journey.

Until next week remember to

SIP SIP