Two weeks of Hell

Will I know that it has been a while, so here is an update: Started school on the 9th and all has been will until the loneliness set in. Started to bengee eating at night. I think it is being alone with some much time on my hands. I try to keep myself busy with homework and walking, but there is only so much you can do until everything starts to close in on you. I think it because that the holidays are over, and that all the family and friends have all gone home. Trying to stay in a routine is hard when you have no one around to push you. The support groups are great but the can only do so much. (sip sip). I not saying that they do not work, they do work and are great for support for eating the right foods and all, but I felt alone, like I do not fit in. Maybe it is due to the fact that I am new and I had my surgery somewhere else. Remember how you went to a party, or your first day in a new school or office. They all welcome you with smiles and talk to you, but, you still feel like you were out of place.

Then we have had snow, and then 5 days no power. And to make matters worst, I got homework due. Every time I go out and try to get it done, I just can not get into it. Its like I got a million things racing in my head. I just feel over whelmed. Trying to get it all done but some how I just do not think I can.

I am still losing the weight, and not on Monday a have a trainer at school that will work with me two days a week. Is free so I know that I can get back into the game. (sip sip) Will post more on monday.

And the week begins

Hello ya'll

Will lets start off with I went to see the doctors on Thursday. I thought that I would be in and out in 10 to 15 minutes, ohhhhhh nooooooo I was there over an hour and a half. I left my bottle of water in the car because I ASSUMED that I would be in and out. They ask me where my water was, I told them it the car. I saw my favor RN Ms. Love. Yes that is her name. She has been a big part of this journey. I know if I need someone to talk to she will be there.

So back to doctor appointment I weighted in at 244.4 FULLY Clothed. not bad at all the normal weight loss for this surgery is 45 pounds at the 3 month mark. I was it 56 pounds plus it was at Christmas time. YAAAAAAAA. I was pulled off of all my meds, and no more protein shakes. :)

Then the other day to top it all off I put on my Navy Dress Blues. The very same one I wore when I retired. and the pants were TOOOOOO BIG!!!!! Damn I look gooooood in it. The smile on my face lit up the whole house. (sip sip).

So the new chapter in my life has a great beginning, with an new out look on life, family, and my future. This time last year, I was in the dark, I was cold and I was alone. I did not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but today, I have a great person who loves, and respects me, She has two great kids and she puts up with my jokes. I love you Tammy. I have two quarters left of school, and working on getting back on my feet to support not only me but my family. (sip sip).

Well it is getting late and I need to check on a sick lady.

Like always remember to sip sip

On till then, T.T.F.N.

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year!! Looking back over 2011, I came to the conclusion that last year was a BIG Freakin Roller Coaster RIDE! Where I screamed, I cried, I smiled, and laughed. I was at my lowest and at my highest in my life. What will 2012 hold in store for me? No clue, but like last year, I will take each day one step at a time. (sip sip). I know it will be a rough ride, but with the support of family and VERY CLOSE Friends (Tammy), it will be a breeze. Here are the goals I set for my self for 2012:

Lose another 50 pounds, Get into UW Tacoma, scuba diving certify. and I want to SKI Dive at least once maybe twice. With losing all this weight I feel like the ski and ocean are the limits. I have more get up and go. I am not fatigue, I am sleeping at night and I do not feel overwhelm in school.

But the Biggest eye opener was last night when I got a call from a friend who husband had an heart attack. He had 70% blockage to his left ventricle. AKA " The widow maker!" BP was 229/125. Not good. They are performing an Trans Esophageal Echo Cardiogram at 8 am PST in the morning. They need to know if the aorta is dissecting. Tammy look at me tonight and said "This could have easily been you!" Yes Tammy it could have. If I did not change my life style when I did, This could have be me, and that is the scariest part of it. I was on 6 different meds.

Here is a Christmas picture of me last year.

And here is this year Picture.

Remember (SIP SIP)